Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1
withers away @ 10:25 pm
release of os results. haha.. ran back to ny to look at the results.. they did well.. better than our batch i think.. me n cyn's mortals did well.. v well in fact.. better than us..
this reminds me.. pw results are gonna be out soon.. oh no.. and during econs gilbert lee just had to talk abt census population 2000.. den casie was like oh well this sounds v familiar huh.. den we gave each other the look.. den barney gave us the look too.. hahaha.. guess wad the book is still in my locker.. come to think of it, pw was quite a nightmare but it really did help to foster friendships.. haha.. i still rmbr the times when we kept going starbucks haha..
oh yes there's this small little bird in LT1.. so cute.. edeline was taking care of it.. put it in a box wif toilet paper, water and bread.. it was just lying there slping.. really v cute.. haha.. hope it survives.. it really looks young..
haf psc talk, guitar prac and some compulsory talk for librarians on wed.. all around same time.. oh wells will go for the psc talk.. actually forgot it was this wed.. was trying to get excused for guitar but was told to get excused for lib.. in the end i excuse myself from both haha..
haiz.. i will try to do a better job.. i admit sometimes i feel too tired to be bothered.. im really mean sometimes.. perhaps alot of times.. i had better realize the fact that wad's done cannot be undone before its too late.. muz try to be less mean.. maybe its alr too late.. haiz..
withers away @ 11:07 pm
today was fun!! haha.. happy bdae sum!! in short we went to yang's house for mahjong, gave sum and joan their presents and we went to ps.. wanted to catch a movie but in the end went to arcade.. sum's present was damn funny.. haha trust the guys to come up with this.. joanie likes the prezzie we gave her!! yeah yeah!!! mb would be happy to hear this..
withers away @ 12:04 am
im sorry.. i thought it was something rather trivial, but i guess it was the last straw for u.. sorry if i spoilt ur day..
withers away @ 10:59 pm
finally got to play games for pe today.. didnt get to play bball though.. i miss bball and how we would stay back on fridays to play abc.. haha.. we played captains ball.. i lost touch! for a couple of minutes i didnt know what to do haha.. too long never play liao.. hahaz but eventually i got it back.. fun! ran quite a bit.. it felt good to sweat.. i still wanna play bball.. full court.. haha im going mad man..
stupid me forgot to eat lunch today.. haha.. how could i.. sometimes i juz cant imagine how blur i am haha.. maybe parents are right in disallowing me to go overseas uni.. i may well forget to eat my meals.. haha wad rubbish.. hiya nvm..
we're planning to go nus open house tho me and cyn went a couple of yrs ago liaoz.. i wanna go back again.. must find chance to go out and tou tou qi.. hahaz..
and mb and i realized tt cts are coming really fast and none of us has mugged anything.. wad's great is tt we've sorta slacked these few mths away and i still dunno what's going on for lectures.. great.. it all shows when i get down to do my tutorials.. well if its called doing in the first place since i dunno how to do it.. haha.. maybe i should start counting down..
im so excited abt sunday!!! hahaz.. i dun really seem to be able to hide it.. haha.. yeah!
ming zhi dao rang ni li kai ta de shi jie bu ke neng hui
wo hai sha sha deng dao qi ji chu xian de na yi tian
zhi dao na yi tian ni hui fa xian
zhen zhen ai ni de ren du zi shou zhe shang bei
chi xin jue dui by li sheng jie
withers away @ 10:19 pm
withers away @ 3:17 pm
just finished chem spa.. wasn't too bad really.. hahaz..
today's gp lesson was all abt whether lying is right or wrong.. interesting.. the passage mentioned something like the problem is not that someone lied to u, but that u dun believe the person anymore.. den champagne said tt we aren't that forgiving afterall.. maybe.. but there are always exceptions i guess.. and i hope..
well she also said tt when there's nothing u can do abt it, telling the truth would only be destructive.. and she gave an eg.. if singapore was going to be attacked by a nuclear bomb in something like half an hr and the govt got this piece of news, is the govt going to announce it to us.. and she said probably not.. coz it would only cause panic and fear and probably not help save many..
doing bio s research now.. im tired..
withers away @ 10:14 pm
in the end bio test was pushed to fri.. bleah.. meaning i will haf to study again..
ran 10 rounds continuously for pe today.. whoa..
kaiyun asked me to be in charged of the "best practices" thingy which nj came up with.. oh wells.. meaning more exco meetings and planning and deadlines.. to put it simply, stress. bleah.. plus concert in the same mth of the deadlines.. if im in charge of concert as well.. *dies* i'll push it to the j1s exco if its ever formed by then.. i want to mug too!! by then its already july lahz..
oh yes i met erene on the overhead bridge.. haha.. met boon shan the other day.. hc bus stop is always a place of meeting ex-classmates haha..
after prac me and mb were juz waiting for her dad to come at the place outside the bookshop.. saw miss lim drive in and go into LT.. then after a while choir started coming out.. and they ended up singing sorta beside us.. its been such a long time since i was at a choir prac.. juz that now i'm only listening.. its been quite a long time since i last heard any choral singing.. and it was only then when i truly realized.. no instrument can compare to choral singing. i dunno how to convey the soul of the song through guitar playing.. but i know it can be done through a choir.. i've done it before and the feeling rox..
i miss singing in ny choir. i miss singing in a SATB choir. i miss miss lim and her conducting. i miss the unity i feel when we sing a beautiful chord. i miss the way choral singing makes me concerned about nothing but singing the song well.
haiz.. there are some things which i just cant let go..
withers away @ 12:28 am
maths test was ok.. trick qns.. haha.. nearly caught me man.. after sch casie revealed sch proj that we were supposed to take part.. i was automatically in one of them, since its for pres/capt, vp/vcapt and secretary.. i wonder wad we are going to do.. tml briefing.. and this thing is in july.. when we are going to have our concert.. if we are confirmed having one that it, though i dunno when and how are we going to learn the songs..
tml got bio test.. according to jc its ok.. it better be.. hiya i dun really give a damn..
er wo zhi dao na zhen ai bu yi ding neng bai tou dao lao
er wo zhi dao you yi tian ni ke neng jiu zhe me zou diao
er wo zhi dao wo zhi dao zhe yi qie wo quan dou zhi dao
wo jiu shi shou bu liao
er wo zhi dao wo men ceng tian zhen de yi qi ku he xiao
er wo zhi dao fang kai shou dan bu zhi dao zen me wang diao
er wo zhi dao ni zou le yi hou de mei yi fen yi miao
que hai shi zhe me nan ao
er wo zhi dao by mayday
withers away @ 3:39 pm
today's chem test was a disaster. as usual. oh wells. dun even noe wad i was writing haha.. juz hope i dun fail too badly.. oh yah champagne wasnt here.. haha so i did bio.. good.. coz i was juz wondering ware the hell do i find the time to do bio when there's maths test tml and i havent even looked at any shit abt it, let alone dig out the notes for numerical mtds.. hahaz..
wo cong lai mei you zhe me ke wang ni qi pian wo
xian kai yi qie
qian chuang bai kong
ming tian dao di zen me guo
ni tai cheng shi by s.h.e.
withers away @ 11:01 pm
sometimes i wonder why i get so bothered when you don't even seem to give a damn.
withers away @ 11:23 pm
i'm with you by avril lavigne
i'm standing on a bridge
i'm waiting in the dark
i thought that you'd be here by now
there's nothing but the rain
no footsteps on the ground
i'm listening but there's no sound
isn't anyone trying to find me
won't somebody come take me home
it's a damn cold night
trying to figure out this life
won't you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
i don't know who you are
but i... i'm with you
i'm with you
i'm looking for a place
searching for a face
is anybody here i know
coz nothing's going right
and everything's a mess
and no one likes to be alone
oh why is everything so confusing
maybe i'm just out of my mind
yeah yeah yeah...
withers away @ 1:10 pm
pe was killing us today.. gosh i can even stand and sit properly.. gotta rely on my hands too.. sux.. guess i'll ache like hell tml..
havent been slping much this wk.. the earliest i slept was probably 1.30.. this is bad.. but nvm one wk is nothing.. juz cant do it too often.. and mum has probably given up on asking me to slp early.. i havent heard her nag abt it this entire wk.. haha..
will try to get well soon..
withers away @ 11:19 pm
today went by v fast.. dunno wad i was thinking the whole day also.. hmmm let me recall..
seriously i cant rmbr wad happened in sch.. but after sch met cyn again!! hahaz.. ytd ate lunch wif her den went to joan's house to visit her.. didnt stay for long though..
oh den after i reached hc bus stop guess who i saw.. huijing!! hahaz.. we were juz complaining abt all types of bus drivers we met and stuff hahaz.. oh she asked abt el too.. same old self.. wad can i say haha.. in the end my bus came first haha..
hmmmm we'll deal wif it as it comes.. i guess u get wad i mean..
im falling behind schedule terribly.. dun understand anything.. this is wad happens when i lose touch wif studies for 1 and a half wks.. great.. didnt do anything at all.. dunno wad's going on.. dunno how to do.. dunno anything.. next wk: 3 tests and chem spa.. rox.. how come i got this feeling that i will screw up.. maybe i already am.. im starting to raise my voice at ppl for no reason again.. shit.. i suck man.. need to catch up..
the thought is coming back to me again.. hafta fight it..
wo jiang wo zi ji fan suo zai fang jian
che ye wei mian
dang shou zhong de feng zheng
yi jing dou duan le xian yue piao yue yuan
wo bu zai hui tou qu jian
na duan cong qian
jie shou ni de bao qian
he bin gong yuan by s.h.e.
withers away @ 12:51 am
oh yes v day! hahaz.. as usual atmosphere is always good on this day.. great to see ppl happy.. but broke.. haha.. dun think they mind.. got a rose from brother.. haha thx! got chocs too.. ate alot during contact man.. haha..
hope all of u out there had a wonderful v day hahaz..
withers away @ 10:58 pm
hahaz be prepared for a long long entry manz.. the following is all the stuff i wrote in the past wk during the trip.. sometimes they dun really link coz im almost distracted all the time haha..
8 feb tues 1.45pm
reaching guangzhou in less than half hr.. watched finding nemo juz now.. such a cute show.. wonder how the celebrations in sch went.. hmm just feels weird not going back to msia to my grandma's place during cny.. haha.. hope i dun fall ill in china.. gd thing that its not too hot or too cold.. juz rite.. at least i think so.. oh yah i realized that in the whole tour grp im the youngest.. they are all middle aged or old ppl!! hahaz looks like not everyone is as bad as me to pon sch sia.. haha.. juz hope i enjoy myself anyhow..
9 feb wed 8.08am
outside century plaza hotel on the bus.. just finished listening to s.h.e.'s bo si mao.. shifu was playing it (they call their drivers shifu here..) hmm i shld write abt wad happened ytd.. now tour guide, chen chao aka xiao chen, is reading some smses he got from his friends last nite.. so funny.. haha..
ytd when we reached guangzhou there were some delay.. coz someone's passport would expire within 6 mths.. they got past the customs anyway by spending some money.. haha oh well.. oh yes i forgot to mention.. SIA rox! haha.. ok im juz going mad that's all..
we got on the bus and headed straight for shenzhen, a 2h ride away.. once we got on the bus, xiao chen started to intro the history of china.. was v interesting but too tired so i fell aslp halfway.. oops.. haha.. but alot of ppl did the same.. by the time i woke up, we were already reaching shenzhen and xiao chen was still talking! gosh.. apparently he talked for 2h non-stop.. haha..
[song now: JJ's jiang nan] went to a place called min su wen hua cun.. dun ask me how to translate.. i dunno.. haha.. watched a damn nice show there.. but it was only 1h!! shall attempt o use my limited vocab to describe the show.. or at least part of it.. [zhang dong liang's dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shei] well its open air.. but v cooling.. temp is abt 15 deg i think.. we were a little late but thank goodness we didnt miss much.. it was abt the diff traditions of china.. they used like real fire crackers, fire, and wad haf u.. oh yes there was this scene abt harvesting season.. and they brought in a couple of cows, a camel, and a lot of sheep!! haha.. all juz walking across the stage like this.. so cute!! haha.. oh yah another great scene.. one guy lighted a torch on a fake mountain on one side of the stage.. den he used it to light some fireworks kinda thing and threw it to the fake mountain on the other side of the stage.. immediately it caught fire and water started flowing down like waterfall.. within seconds we could all feel the heat from the fire.. damn cool lah..
after this we went to some supposed street which is selling flowers and stuff.. but when we got there it wasnt even lighted up.. damn quiet lah.. coz they dun haf the tradition of staying outside late on chu xi.. they stay cooped up at home watching tv, according to xiao chen.. in the end he called whoever's in charge to on the lights and stuff for us.. haha.
2.30pm
i guess i better talk abt today.. main thing was going to this place called window of our world.. replicates of all the famous landmarks everywhere.. i saw the merlion haha. v nice.. took a lot of photos.. it was as though we went to so many countries all at once.. but didnt manage to finish looking at everything.. it was a v big place lah.. damn alot of ppl.. coz hols mah.. haha.. oh it was v hot and cold at the same time.. so we were like wearing jackets and stuff but sweating away.. haha
oh now on the bus liao... someone went to a money changer in china and got fake notes.. xiao chen teaching us how to differentiate the notes and telling us the tactics tricksters use.. tsk tsk..
9.20pm
we juz finished shopping in zhuhai.. saw damn cheap cds.. can haf like 3 cds only costing 5 sgd.. i found a cd with yanzi's new album's cover but inside got 2 cds.. one of the new songs and another of fish's songs.. hahaha.. wad the.. didnt buy them though.. couldnt really decide on wad to get.. nvm we'll be going shopping every nite haha..
oh yah one of our tourmates lost her handbag along with her passport.. and her husband's too.. they were eating at kfc and the handbag was left on the table.. that's it.. gone.. right before their noses.. so now waiting for them to make police report and stuff.. haiz.. [ocean's gu dan bei ban qiu] really cant trust china's security man.. sux.. always been v comfortable wif leaving my bag down on the seat and buy food back in sg.. must rmbr cant do it here..
oh well today we went to buy and shop and eat quite a bit.. [li sheng jie's chi xin jue dui] haha nice songs man.. shifu rox! dinner was pretty good.. all seafood.. lucky im not too sick.. oh yes forgot to mention the weather is realy good.. v cooling.. hoho we're heading back to the hotel now.. in zhongshan..
oh yes talking abt hotels havent talk abt last nite's hotel.. was trying hard not to slp coz it wasnt past midnite.. watching some cny shows from china and hk.. china's one mostly high-pitched singing which tested the threshold of my eardrums.. the hk one is all in cantonese.. bleah.. finally at midnite i heard fireworks! so went to the window and saw beautiful fireworks.. could see quite a dist away.. alot of places had fireworks man.. can see them shooting out of hotel windows too haha.. v nice.. oh yah some tour mates played with firecrackers too haha..
10 feb thurs 8.24am
well last nite saw how popular jay is here.. while going shopping saw a lot of his posters.. went back to hotel, on tv, during the weather forecast.. guess wad's the backgrd music? qilixiang! omg.. hahahaa
oh yes i went to a ktv juz now.. hahaz.. for breakfast lahz.. restaurant in hotel under renovation.. hahaz.. even the cups we used were meant for beer.. doink..
3.28pm
at shunde now.. today nothing much happened.. juz went around diff places looking at stuff.. drank alot of tea.. blah blah.. oh we saw bian lian performance.. fascinating.. took photo wif a monkey here too!! haha..
life away frm hwk is so nice hahaz.. nothing to worry abt.. oh the toilets are ok.. at the v least they haf doors haha..
oh yah for some reason some tour mates decided to give xiao chen an english name and somehow they settled for peter. doink. but i still prefer calling him xiao chen haha..
11 feb fri 8.19am
leaving hotel liaoz.. probably leaving panyu too.. oh yah went to the guys toilet juz now.. coz we couldnt push open the main door to the ladies.. haha..
8.39am
according to the display on the bus its like 8 deg now.. no wonder its so damn cold.. last nite also.. oh yah there were fireworks last nite too!! haha everynite get to see fireworks..
4.43pm
at zhaoqing now.. juz bought v cheap strawberries.. me and mum picked them ourselves!! haha.. quite fun sia.. but made the whole bus wait for us haha..
before this we went to visit some beefarm.. bees flying all over..
6.12pm
we're going off to eat dinner liao.. juz now went to some lake.. sat in a boat.. roamed around.. it was cold.. haha.. so was xiao chen.. he fell sick.. with fever.. someone gave him panadol.. it worked like a miracle.. coz they dun really eat western medicine here.. so it has wonderful effects haha..
12 feb sat 8.45am
[s.h.e.'s bo si mao] leaving hotel soon.. dunno wad's going to happen today.. last nite went walking ard the hotel.. still havent bought my cds yet.. bleah.. [elva's ai de zhu da ge] went for massaging too.. but only my parents.. i juz sit there n slack n watch tv.. realized their pay is damn low.. i wonder how they survive man.. when they heard how much we haf to spend to travel to china they were so damn shocked lah.. they said they cant even afford it with their pay for 2yrs.. wad an income disparity manz.. oh yah saw a lot of beggers too.. some run after us.. quite scary sometimes.. of coz we didnt bother abt them.. xiao chen says they haf some form of organization.. hiya wadeva lahz.. going to ostrich park/farm wadeva now.. haha
4.45pm
juz finished going to guanzhou zoo and underwater world.. quite nice.. went to see dolphin show too hahaz.. reminds me alot of sentosa..
10.28pm
at some hotel waiting for massage for my parents.. [jay's shuang jie gun on tv] bought s.h.e.'s cd *which i later found out to be vcds instead.. quality is ok considering its frm china.. juz feel quite cheated for quite a few songs* and mayday's cd.. nice nice nice!! they are damn cheap lahz.. 20RMB each.. hahaz..
13 feb sun 12.12pm
on the way to airport now.. last nite slept at 1am after eating cup noodles.. shopped more last nite too..
this morning went to their markets to take a look.. their stuff here are damn fresh.. the 1st thing i saw when i saw the meat stall was this dead skinless rabbit hung up.. and another one lying there as though it was dissected carefully, with all the insides intact.. the fish there are like all swimming in front of u.. u choose they fish and they kill it for u.. *duh* and they dun remove the insides after they cut up the fish.. so its really quite erm.. bloody haha.. oh we bought veg there!! damn cheap lahz..
will reach sg at nite.. as usual, i miss sg so much.. but it also means going back to all the troubles and stress.. bleahz.. i miss u guys so much..
withers away @ 12:40 am
im back! hahaz.. got so much to blog.. but i dun haf the time the space and the mood now.. will try to blog abt the trip soon.. i wrote entries on paper throughout the trip..
happy v-day!! hahaz..
withers away @ 11:30 pm
leaving sg tml.. bye ppl.. will be back.. hahaz
withers away @ 11:37 pm
sick and tired. having a damn sore throat.. dun feel like talking.. spent whole of fri night slping and didnt get any work done. tired and distracted today. bad.. havent started on any of the 3 essays im supposed to do by mon.. im totally not motivated at all.. doesnt help when the cny hols stares ahead.. haha.. wadeva lahz..
havent written cny cards yet also.. have to churn them out by mon too.. oh no.. oh yah going back to ny on mon! haha.. need to write more cny cards argh..
will leave for china soon.. and pon sch haha.. just hope nothing happens to me and my fam.. everyone back in sg pls pls tc of urselves too.. dun try to be funny and attain nirvana.. and of coz not forgetting my dear in genting.. dun roll down k.. haha..
withers away @ 1:24 pm
too many things to think about. too little time to lose. those thoughts have been flying about in my head. bad thoughts. haha.
withers away @ 10:58 pm
screwed up audition. nvm quite expected actually.. bleahz. break out in cold sweat go in talk alot of crap freak out lost memory stun stone come out. die. hahaha
after prac, waited at bus stop for quite some time. flag the bus. bus didnt stop. flag again. it stopped for me. went up and the bus driver scolded me. said i should flag before the bus reached the bus stop. I DID. he was the one who didnt see. i bet all the hc ppl at the bus stop saw me do it.
haiz maybe he had a bad day too.
probably the thing that really cheered me up was during civics. having much fun with our junior class hahaz.. at least that's something good cultural mapping did to us haha..
bleahz writing to my angel now.. havent written after quite a long time.. feel quite guilty hahaz.. shld write more often to both my angel and mortal..
ou er wo zhen de bu dong ni
you you shei zhen dong zi ji
wang wang liang ge ren duo qin mi
shi tou guo shang hai lai zheng ming
wo ai ni by s.h.e.
withers away @ 2:43 pm
bio spa.. ah well nvm heck.. its ok lahz.. next wk's cny liaoz.. seems so fast.. time is passing by fast.. v fast.. too fast.. sometimes i feel that i cant catch up with time..
hahaz i juz gotta go all the way and jia you.. i dun really haf a choice do i.. hahaz..